Peculiar

Personal write up has always been complicated for me. How to put myself out ! Ah! Now when I am going to give it a try- I am not going to care for my audience...I am writing for myself and I want to be honest to myself. Honesty is sometimes the only thing a person can afford.

I have always loved to enjoy a certain freedom in all that I do. A true believer of Aazaadi. 'Certain' ?? Strange it is, no? Ha ! Yes, a very confused girl I am. I want nothing and everything. I want freedom and I want people to care for me as well. I want to cross all the boundaries and at the same time I want someone to stop me from falling. I want to touch the sky but want my feet on the ground. So what if I am confused! I will make my way. :) I will find a way to live life in full swing, with full enthusiasm. Someday ! Hopes !

So these days I am in Bengaluru, Karnataka. Waise I am a Delhiwallah, who has grown in the city and knows all the fears a girl can face in this city. Yes Delhi by night is dangerous and threatening, but so is B'lore. I think, we Delhi people are both victim of the city as well as its vigilante defender. Oh ! that is completely an different issue. So I was writing about 'me'. Life was simple previously. Uhhm I was not ready for that probably. Those imaginary challenges !! Attraction towards those fears !! Result? Well I am here in B'lore  2, 140 KM away from family. It's not a big deal, so many girls are staying away for various reasons..some are studying..some are doing job..and some are just trying to find the way. In my case, its' cool ! I am here for good only. I have always been a very protective child of the family. Unaware of the world. A world which is full of conflicts, so it is an opportunity for me to explore more.

  

Sometimes a li'l encouragement means a lot, no! A li'l extra care..extra love..a hug..a hand to console..a person, who whisper in your ear that everything is going to be fine. Nowadays I feel more independent, with better understanding of empathy and connection than I had previously. (credit to the place, situations, and to few lovely people) I miss my family though, but I have to accomplish more with their love and blessings. My parents are getting older..and I am missing all those moments, I can spend with them. Time...once you lose it, you can never get it back. I will never get these moments back. I think I am expecting too much from life...Nevertheless I want to roam around the world...want to discover new fears..and overcome them. :)

BAAKI PHIR KABHI....